as life's getting tough for me..
i realised crying isnt all.
problems in school.
problems at home.
problems with my love.
problems with my friends.
i realised crying isnt all.
self pity and crying for sympathy aint all.
its time to wake up from the sleep.
its time to move on.
im far behind time.
i needa catch up with everyone else.
life is tough. and so are you =p
okays. this is meant to be a joke.
had a talk through msn with this guy i dont know.
he seems nice. i was frank.
told him what on earth happened.
and well. he gave all advices.
he tell me that isnt all.
he told me lotsa things. and im grateful to him.
thanks dude*
well. have the sudden urge to go to church.
i wanna see God. and i needa talk to Him.
i just feel like giving tomorrow's concert a miss.
and go to church. i wan God to let me know what's going on.
i live my life. i need to know what is happening now.
i hope God would bless me and everyone else..
tomorrow will be going to david tao's mini concert.
with cheryl, ray and another person.
i'm not very excited about it actually. but well.
since my sis bought the disc for the ticket.
and she cant make it. i shall go.
but if she change her mind last minute.
i'm fine with it. i aint 100% interested..
i have this weird feeling lingering in me.
i have this mood that makes me feel like slping.
i dont know what i want exactly.
and i dont expect anyone to tell me anything.
a very weird mood indeed.
called shannie and lynn just now.
both have no idea where to go tomorrow.
i wanna go sing k. but they are broke.
i wanna go suntan. but have to see how things go.
whatever i wanna do has got total no link;
with what's gonna happen soon.
which is my exams.
my exams are just around the corner.
i dont feel neither nervous or worried.
i've got no mood for my exams.
but well. no choice. i've to study.
this is spore. i've no choice but to study.
had my paper one today. kinda simple for both.
but but but... how do i say?
my chinese letter writing gonna minus marks.
i forget one small tiny whiny part of the format.
but well. forget it. its over.
there's nothing i can do about it.
as for tomorrow. i've planned.
i just wanna spend some quiet time alone.
im gonna pick up my books and revise.
after i wake up frm my sleep.
den go work out a little.
maybe cycle. maybe jog.
or maybe just walk round the malls.
i dont know. i shall let things go its way.
in the evening, go for the thingy.
maybe go see stars for awhile.
then go home for a night's rest.
since my guy insisted on not meeting.
and sunday should be some quiet time too.
monday too.. sometimes its good to be alone.
though people might find you weird n insane.
but spending time alone might be a way out.
a way out for all my problems and for me...
like many have said..
sometimes life isnt as bad as you think it is.
it is how you think.. its all with the mind.
look at the bright side of life...well. its getting late. and i cant fall asleep.
i try so hard not to think.
but i still end up thinking about some things.
im really hoping God would give me a way out.
good nite guys. take care. enjoy the weekend ^^
for every bad things that happened..
something good will come out from it ~
Dear Lord, our Father.I'm here to pray and hope that You'd bless us from above.Bless us the human with a simple yet happy life.Bless us with a problem-free life.In return, we'll take heed of Your command.And in return, we'll sacrifice anything for You.In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.through all these obstacles in life..one learn things through the harsh way.life isnt as bad as one think.its the mind that decides on what you want to think.look at the bright side of life.dont think negative thoughts..and life will be fine.however, dont be too complacent.life is never smooth sailing.waves come and go.what we expect most will only happen when we least expect it.life may seem to be a simple 4 letter word.but the meaning behind it..takes one's life to realise and understand it.that is life...
i just realised when he's with his friends, i mean nothing.
and i mean nothing. well anyway. its expected.
and i cant expect much. but speaking seriously...
i dont quite believe he's with the guys.
its too quiet. well forget it.
if he's with, then its good..
if he's not, then forget it. i wont wanna say much.. =(
alrights. im thinking.. if..
the both of us are meant to be together..
its like.. we're like.. now a heaven and earth..
there's a big 'gap' between us.
not the age gap. but.. another.. you know?
as time pass, we find out more things about each other.
and now.. haiis.. i dont know..
it feels like you dont care abt me.
and doest wan to. soooooo. haiis..
i dont know.. i really dont... haiis..
alrights. just did my timing and did a compo.
on my life. kinda corny. but.. alrights.
partially i just need the heading and the timing.
and the ending. but i find the ending a little common.
okays. the compo is totally corny.
im so gonna redo it.. HAHA.
one argumentative and one narrative.
then give mrs poh, ask her help me check the argumentative de.
bwahahahs... i just trying to do.. LOLS.
nevermind. its for fun. ^^
alrights alrights.
im sooooo gonnna log out now.
and do my compo
s.
nothing troubled me as much as our matter..
good nite guys.. take care ^^
all the best for your exams!!
after a
big fight..
comes the hugs n kisses..
we made up anyway x)
oh yeahs. enjoyed myself today.
apart from all the problems..
and backaches.
and headaches.. =)
bought mah guess wallet.
a birthday gift from boyboy =)
its sooooo nice..
i love you boy.. smooches*
aiights. gotta go..
imma tired. no sch for me tml.
resting at home.
frans coming over to study at 9am.
hahas. we both are terrible people..
anws. good nite all!!
sleep well tonight..
hugs n kisses!!
god bless x)
i dont wanna know by p. diddy. nice song.
alrights. its a freakaye friday.
suppose to fnsh sch at like.. 1230..
but i got home only at 4pm. wth!!
hahas. helped mrs poh with recording things.
before that, was eating chips with frans.
and i
mean chips. hahas..
den yuppies. hahas. got home late..
lessons are booooring.
super bth. today kinda funny.
played bball. as its last p.e. lesson.
girls VS guys. girls lost by 1. hahas..
we let one okays!! =pPpP
l0ls. den during intellect log on..
its damn crappy. matt was totally insane.
rong n stance oso.. dicky was totally perverse.
me was 'ohno-ing' my day off. hahas..
my grp consists of me, matt, dicky n dora.
so we were talking things outta our topic.
we were talking about lotsa stuffs.
about carats?? hahas.. and i was like.. malu. LOLS.
we asked teacher how big is a carat.
and its like 10 times the size ive said. l0ls..
ive looked down on diamonds man.. hahas..
its damn funny. den we were talking abt lotsa stuff.
damn funny bahs.. hahas..
thursday..
had netball. sec 4 officially step down.
got pumped like crazy.. haiis.
but overall. its kinda fun.
esther and feng ming came back..
as u know.. their buddies stepping down..
hmmm. just know i was eating like a pig. hahas..
wednesday..
what was on? hmm.
dont quite rmb. but i know i didnt stay in sch.
miss ng didnt come. but still did our art test.
its terribly done. l0ls.
and oh yarhs..
got my girt from the class... its sooooo sweet.
i
love the bracelet the girls gave.
and of cos. i
love the necklace the guys gave!!
hahas. thanks guys.. ^^
went home after sch. and slept i think.. yeahs. hahas.
tuesday..
ohno!! i dont quite rmb either.
nothing much happened bahs. l0ls!!
but went out to meet baby at nite. hahas..
went for a movie.. the pacifier by vin diesel.
nice show. shld catch it. its kinda amusing.
and touching as well =)
monday.. me turned 4teen... x)
was my birthday. honey fetched n sent me to sch..
had hugs n kisses. it was soooo sweet.
that he begged me not to go school. l0ls.
but went ahead larhs.. hahas..
den met him after sch.
after mah dinner with mummy n bro.
its damn filling larhs... hahas..
met him. hanged around pasir ris on his bike.
den went home at 2300 plus close to 0000.
sch's as usual.. monday blues.
didnt enjoy myself very much in sch though.
its total booooooooredom. LOLS.
mondays are never nice. hahas...
but well. i love the day overall.
cos its mah bday. l0ls!!
thanks darling for the day.. hugs n kisses!!
mah weekend..
was with my baby. he's sooooooooo sweet.
hahas... just love hanging around him.
i love his presence. i love him being around.
i love you babe.. ^^
well well.
tomorrow is another saturday.
going out. meeting him i guess.
but i doubt im meeting my babe early.
he's on the way to the doctor's now. with shun.
he hitted his chest with his bicycle handle.
it hurts. it definitely does.
it hitted the center of his rib cage n chest. haiis.
so he shld be back kinda late. around 1am i guess.
he's on his way there now.
so i shall let him rest. and meet him a little later tml.
hmmm. btw. ive made my plans for revision midyr.
hahahs.. from next week onwards i guess. yupps.
this weekend, i gotta fnsh up mah bloody dnt.
e
imcompleted folio n
yet-to-finish workpiece of mine.
will be
graded next monday. how sucky can it get?
hahahas.. bth. gotta chiong.
ive got
many pages of folio yet to be completed.
haiis. the
consequences of 'eating snake' during dnt lesson.
LOLS. nevermind. used to it.
and ive got no intention of taking dnt next yr.
hopefully not bahs.. haiis....... =(
well well.
this post is getting draggy. ive said what i wanna say.
everyone, just work hard for ur mid years.
and at the same time, relax urself when u should.
doont overwork urself. it wont do ur body good..
good luck guys.. and enjoy!! (>.^)V
wahahas. 1 more day. 2 big
thangs ~ x)
okays. definitely enjoyed my day out.
because im with him. just with him.. =)
met him at white sands arcade.
waited for him to fnsh his game.
den to tampines by taking bus 21?
slackked around. wenta coffee bean for a drink.
sat down for quite some time.
before heading towards tm arcade.
played several games together.. hahas..
ate at kfc. den got outta tm.
took 31 to marine parade.
that place changed quite alot.
so wenta play.. l0ls. not play exactly.
but walked around. crapped.
honey bought me a winnie e pooh mirror, comb set.
a mini one. its soooooooooooooo cute x)
den he got himself a band. the one that is in fashion now?
hahas. he got a black one with the word
dream.
after that. wenta walk. wenta lotsa shops.
went in to mango.
there's this particular 55 bucks long sleeve tt i like.
but its too ex. so forgo it. l0ls.
wenta walk outside the mall for quite long.
settled down at a kopitiam for awhile.
end up eating oyster egg n prawn egg.
we aint hungry. just feeeeling booooored. LOLS!!
after eating, wenta take 15 back to pasir ris.
changed to no. 3 and went home.
he sent me home. sat down n talked for awhile.
and i came home, he went home,
happily x)made plans for tommorow and monday le..
bwahahas.. for mah birthday.. so glad man..
hahas. so glad i've got him. i love you baby x)
will be meeting him tml. and monday. hahs.
well. all i know is that i enjoyed myself today.
so much that im soooo happy. thanks baby.
well well. so now i shall be a good girl.
and go to bed.
good nite all. sweet dreams.
baby i love you. miss ya oreadi.
hugs n kisses for you ^^
alrights. come on. its like what the fuck man.
guys suck. alrights?
they are a bunch of...
petty;
unreasonable;
unsensitive;
stupid;
irritating
idiots -
they're worst pple i've ever seen.
to hell with them. jerks, go die please.
if you guys dont know how to..
open ur window and jump out.
you will die. dont worry you wont. you will.
okays. forget it.
well well. school in the past few days were booring.
same old things. nothing new..
studying studying and just studying.
wednesday had a treasure hunt.
so fun!!! hahas.. had fun running all around in sch..
thursday.. didnt go for netball.
instead wenta meet him.
den wenta meet deshun, linkin n jerry play ball.
chiawei came down with his scooter..
thats like.. so cute. hahas...
den friday which is today..
wenta ngee ann poly for a talk on growing celosia.
gosh. gotta start late april to 2-6th may.
first prise is 500 bucks.
den 250. and 100 bucks. cheapskate. LOLS.
ohmygod. its like..
me, vivien, jacqueline went with mrs yeo n kiranjeet.
den took a cab. its like.. 15 bucks there.
and 15 bucks back. hahas. gosh..
i freaking fell aslp on the cab. hahas.
anws. had a talk with mrs yeo too..
actually. she's quite nice afterall.. hahas..
well. lotsa teachers in sch have been talking abt me..
hearing from her.. hahas..
well basically. its bcos of mah family.
kinda expected its mrs poh or mrs tey bahs.. hahas.
but well. its okays. this kinda thing.
isnt uncommon. in fact, its common nowadays.
spent like 1/2 hr listening to the talk.
walked. den waited for cab.
den reach sch at 1715. haiis. hahas.. tired =p
oh well. im going work at mac at loyang point.
from next week onwards i think. most probably...
with frans. since linkin say they in need of pple.
hahahs. good. got money soon!!
btw. frans mayb pulling me to work in oriental.
during the hols. which is 6.50 per hr.
for about 5 hours. hahas.. thats soooo cool.
mayb going work with her too. hahas..
me n her can say quite close le bahs..
hoping that this frenship will last.
cos im afraid of losing frens again..
well. i dont know where i'll be going tomorrow.
maybe going out. maybe not.
had a small tiff with him. HAIIS.
a lame one. cant believe it anws.
its so god damn spastic.
well. forget it. im going off.
it'll be 7pm soon. bye guys.
oh yarhs!! monday is an important day!! hahas x)
take care and enjoy ya weekends =D
anws guys, im not generalising.
just venting my anger. thats all.. =)
okays. damn it. im like suffering from insomia?
i wanna sleep and neeeda sleep badly.
and i mean badly.
but i just couldnt fall asleep.
what is this man. i got myself real upset n pissed.
its like im falling asleep in classs.
but from nowhere if pple talk to me..
i'll feel wide awake again. its like..
i couldnt go to sleep.
usually, nothing could hold me on from slping..
but what the hell. im kinda pissed.
real pissed.
i oreadi woke up early in the weekends..
why wouldnt god allow me to sleep?
i wanna sleep so so so much.
ytd, my sister didnt came home.
naturally, i would have difficulties even to climb on bed.
den got deshun to talk to me..
i didnt feel sleepy anws..
yes, i fell asleep at 3am.
but i can still hear his voice clearly before he hung up.
its like im still awake. haiis.
forget it man.. im bound to suffer for days.
well. no one's at home again. what the hell man.
getting real bored. no homework.
shld get myself involved in revision yeahs?
but i think im gonna watch vcds. there's a song i like.
the song's damn nice. soothing, calming, sexaye. hahas.
well well. im very determined to do what ive listed.
in the previous post. i needa get them!!!
haiis. gosh. booooooring.
as the sun sets, the nite sky appears, the day darkens.
no one to be with me, to be there to hold on to me.
im feeling all cold and lonely..
wishing for my prince to return home quickly.
to realise that im all along here just waiting for him..
hahas. crappy me.
the feeling as sun sets, being alone at home. l0ls.
alrights. im gonna fall so very sick i guess.
all the biscuits. dry food. improper slp. hahas.
so i think im gonna fall sick again. damn it man. haa.
well. there isnt any homework.
so i think im gonna rot rot n rot.
if i call him, i think i'll end up givin in playin gb with him.
haiis. why is there nothing i do tt will make myself happy?
im beginning to doubt the reason for me to be here.
to be with him..
everytime he's at home.. i feel nevertheless stress.
ive to make sure i dont play game with him.
in order to prevent a quarrel.
which further meant that i cant talk to him at all.
cos all he does at home will be gunbound.
which is irritating to me.
well. im not gonna think. i dont think he'll ask much abt me.
and even if he does, if he's playing game too..
he'd just get pissed off and ask me go to bed n rest.
and definitely my day will suck.
its difficult for him to get him to care for me i guess.
care for me the way i want i think.
sometimes i just need it. but..
he think that his games are more worthwhile.
what can i do? tell me.. hahas.
there's nothing i can do about it..
i talk to him about it. and here comes his golden mouth.
he'd so gonna throw his vulgarities out at me..
saying that he'd rather play the game than to talk to me.
cos playing game makes him happier.
at times it really makes me wonder..
who or actually what is more impt to him?
the game or me? i feel that im somehow replaced by a game.
and ive never think that he'd give up the game for me.
no matter how much changes im gonna make.
he'd still be playing the game.
lying to me about playing game..
i dont know why. but if he cant be true abt this game..
i simply hate it when he plays it.
and well. he's so open when playing it.
so cmon. 2 words... fuck it.
i've got no choice. but fuck it.
there is really nothing i can do.
well. i shall bet with you.
if i were to open gb application after i bathe.
he'd be online playing oreadi. believe? hahas.
i wouldnt wanna believe that.
for once i hope i'll be wrong.
but never once i was wrong.
maybe in the mid nites i'll b wrong.
but for these times, i dont think i'll be.
well. give me a minute =)
alrights. he's in. hahas.
well well. im soooooo gonna go now.
not feeling tired. but ive been on comp for a day.
hahas. alrights. gonna wait for his call.
he've went running.
cos he's feeling blue... haiis!!
well well. take care guys. see ya.
good nite. sweet dreams all ^^
ohmy ohmy!! im feeeeeling so tired =pPpP
kkays. just got home. just done bathing.
thought i could stay up till 2am?
but my eye lids cant seem to hang on any longer..
it just wanna close and go into lala land!! hahas.
well. i wont give in. i will stay awake until 2.
den go sleep without any troubles x)
its a sickening sunday. it
still is.
just hope time would pass a little faster. hahas.
kkays. went to pasir ris at 5pm?
met him under his block. ate potato balls.
he made it himself. im proud of my boy x)
i'll give you 10/10. nice nice!! yummy yummy..
hanged around his block there.
then to bball court. watched him play ball for....
an hour? wenta eat. unhappily. hahas. small tiff.
den walked to downtown east.
no sign of any creative sales. -.-"
and i asked for a break up.
and i guess i hurt him again with my words =(
he walked away. i followed.
he's lost in my sight. i chased.
chased the wrong guy. i cried.
he called.. hugged and made up.
wenta white sands. did my ezlink card.
den got a drink n bite. den took a bus back home.
kisses n hugs. and went home =D
well. im temperamental. im crazy. hahas..
always like this. my mood changes very quickly.
bwahahahs!! l0ls.. =pPpP
while i bathed.. (
dont misunderstand =p )
i thought about the clothes i wanna buy!!
i wanna change the things in my wardrobe.
i dont care... i wanna change!! hahas.
kkays. lets talk about clothings and accesories.
i need..
a proper nite dress.
long sleeve off shoulder top.
lacy spags.
turtle neck.
and t shirt.
thats for tops.new pair of jeans.
track pants.
skirt.
normal pants.
thats for bottoms.earrings.
hand bags.
thats for accesories.make-up.
hair-do.
dress up.
i wanna learn these..yuppies.
thats about it.. hahas..
add up.. i guess 300 shld be enough.
some are not needed tt soon.
and there are good n cheap stuffs.
i've to learn how to make up.
i've to learn how to do my hair.
i've to learn how to dress up well.
yupps. once my mid year ends..
here it is. im gonna learn. hahas..
cant stand it when i dress nice..
but my face look so pale. goshhies!! -.-
im gonna excercise and tone up soon.
real soon. ive got some motive for that.
hahas.. its to surprise some peeps.
and im oreadi thinking where to take him to.
on his 21st birthday.
that's a
big headache.
must plan asap. cos i need to save money.
he's like taking 4 days of leave?? mygod.
then where shall he n i go?
he suggested going to kl or johor..
to shop like crazy. but but but..
i oreadi plan to dress nicely.. hahahs..
nvm. tt we can still discuss. hahas..
well well. its like 2355 now.
its monday in another 5 minutes.. booo~
there's school. booooooring.
oh well. ive scheduled out my study plans.
i
have to stick by it man.
if not im so gonna flung my exams. haiis.
im like left with only
18 days to paper 1?!?!
by paper 1, ive gotta done with my notes le.
den when exams come, i just read n understand.
im doing my geog, sci, chi, art, eng n dnt notes.
in 2 weeks. im giving myself to get done with these.
in 2 weeks. i must do it. if not..
i wont have enough time for my revision.
my revision with him for math, hist n lit.
yupps. goshhies. time kinda flies actually.
im finding im kinda lacking of time.. hhaas.
24 hours aint enough for me.. hahas..
thats what everyone says. LOLS.
alright alrights. im so gotta plan my time.
and sometime this week im gonna take mc.
spend my whole day revising.
a
breakaway from school.
i need a break
so much.
alot.
im feeling kinda stressed out.. hahas.
well. its a loooooooooong entry.
im going off then. got work to catch up with.
bye guys. rest well =D
its a new day.a new beginning.start the day well.cherish. love ya babe <3
alrights. back again.. hahas.. feeling so so much better x)
thanks to darling anws. muacks*
okays. girls are superrr duperr contradictory at
this age.
LOLS. alrights. lemme tell you about my day. hahas x)
went out around 1530.
met him under his block. by then..
my attitude was gone. wahahas..
had huggs. den wenta tampines.
headed down to swensens. mygod.
enjoyed myself pretty much there.
ate omelette. prawns fritters.
darling had omelette. prawns fritters.
and shared a sticky chocolate ice cream =)
by then, 2 hours passed.
wenta arcade. played. hahas..
den took 81. back to pasir ris.
slackked near playground. look at the innocent children.
they're just so cuteeeeeeeeeeeee!!
den got a drink. headed towards some void deck to chat.
den took 89 to compass point. got my things.
then slackked outside compass point.
talked alot. ate again. drank. wonderful nite.
by then another 2 hrs passed.
darling then sent me home. slackked.
hugs and kisses. den went home reluctantly.. hahas..
well. that was the wonderful day. hahas.
tml made plans le. meeting jerry and maybe others?
play bball at pasir ris. hahas.. it shld be fun x)
well. hope things wont go wrong.
okays. gonna go then. go sleep.
all i know i did enjoy myself alot.
darling i love you lotsa. muacks*
well, rest well. take good care of urself.
dont let anything affect you.
love you so much.
must be fine, alrights?
i never wanna live without you.
love you. sleep tight. muacks* miss you le!!!
what a lousy morning.
it just sucks. big time.
well. got woken up uncountable times.
sister woke me up at 3am last nite.
cos she just got home n i was on her bed.
sleeping. i fell aslp anws.
den climbed onto my bed. slept.
woke up several times in the mid nite.
cant seem to be falling asleep.
cos i had a real terrible dream.
well. i tot forget it. just a dream. i'll sleep.
so when i was about to fall asleep at 7am..
the dream came across my mind again.
i was damn sick n tired.
so okays. wenta sleep. until 9am.
i cant take it anymore. i woke up.
and here i am. feeling kinda stupid.
its a stupid dream anws.
no point talking about it.
i'll just get myself so blooody boiling pissed.
i'm just feeling very very tired now.
but whenever i tried lying on my bed..
and try falling asleep. the blooody dream..
would continue from where it stopped.
its darn irritating. i tell you..
ive got not much of patience for this crap.
and well well well..
this dream made me lost my mood to go out today.
so i think i either go out with an attitude.
or stuck at home with my pile of work.
i dont know why wont God save me from this.
do i even have to suffer from this?
here i am yawning, but afraid to sleep.
what is this crap man?
ive never heard of any human afraid to slp.
perhaps the dying would..
but a normal human like me, i guess not.
im getting real pissed with this. its like...
cmon. give me some peace will you?
oh God, my Lord. give me some peace.
other than pissed. and real pissed.
ive no other feelings. im just pissed off.
alrights. im kinda lost too.
feeling darn lost. im a lost sheep.
i dont know. i just dont feel okays.
will god save me? haiis..
my heart cant calm down.
im feeling terrible.
though i thought things will b fine.
well fuck. im really freaking pissed by now.
i dont know what is sooo very wrong.
with me. with everything. and with everyone.
enough of these shit.
the promises dont count.
so never make me promises ever again.
the word 'forever' never exists.
so never tell me you'll love me forever.
till death do us part is just a saying.
it will always be.
so never tell me you'll love me tddup.
im beginning to hate my life more as days passed.
im beginning to hate everyone too..
im beginning to lose trust in everyone.
no one's worth trusting..
no one's worth to deserve me.
everyone's just trying to fool me.
and try to make me look like a big fool all time.
i hate everyone. i will. one day.
even you. will mean nothing to me.. one day.
the cut just gets deeper as everyday passed.
instead of recovering, i get hurt more.
life sucks. life has always suck.
there's no one i can confide in.
there's no one i can share my problems with.
even my family..
we just seem like 6 strangers living together.
we dont talk much. this and that.
other tha attitudes n quarrels..
i dont see 'happiness' in my family.
all these happened since 4 yrs back?
the guy i love so much..
things are going wrong too.
nothing works out for me..
quarrels quarrrels and more quarrels..
the frens i have.
they arent my frens.
aquaintance would be a more suitable term.
they are ever changing.
they sucked up to you this moment.
the next moment they choose another target.
what is this suppose to mean?
fooling me? make me look like a big fool.
aint you guys doing this?
well. just simply read and forget.
everything in this entry.
im just venting my anger.
from many days back.
all the unkept promises..
wont hurt me that much anymore.
i promise myself.
alrights. im just hoping Father would give me 1 best fren.
who will never turn her/his back against me..
and betray me.
who will always be there for me.
im sorry Lord i didnt cherish the one i had in the past.
now i sincerely hope for one. i'll be contented.
i will not be so ungrateful.
this i promise you. amen.
alrights. im going off.
feeling so much better after typing all these shit.
i'll be going out later.
but ive got no mood for much activities.
ive got not much of mood to meet up with him too.
i dont know why.
but i guess he's not all in my life bahs..
so well. i'll survive without him i guess.
slowly, i'll do it.
okays okays. thats all.
bye guys.
oooooookays. back.
on the fifth of april.
nothing much happened. sch's as usual.
study like an all time book worm.
cant seem to be concentrating.
lotsa things flooding my mind.
i feel so suppressed. i need to breathe.
on the sixth of april.
same. as usual. sch sucks basically. haas.
ive never once like bing in this school.
i just wished i could return to the past.
when i was choosing my school.
well however, i didnt choose this school.
the fucking moe did.
i havent been enjoying my time here.
who knows? who the hell can i talk to?
cmon. there's no one.
so dont come and tell me why didnt i go find you.
you were never free when i need you.
btw, im not shooting anyone.
its generalised. im like this.
on the seventh of april.
had school. not bad a day.
had netball. dread going.
cos i hate my sch's netball.
i'll never love it. trust me.
with the pple like them.
you wont even like it too.
let alone 'love'.
sprained so many things.. hahas.
guess im just trying to adapt to it again.
hahas. its been like...
a month since i went for training? LOLS.
had common test. as usual too..
its a thursday must have. did geog.
easy paper i would say.
the assembly was fantastic.
its about sports. i love them alrights?
talked about michael jordon, lance armstrong.
and one more fellow. i forgot who..
i was really touched. by many things.
well. went home after netball.
it was one hell of torture.
thanks to the sec 1s. we got pumped for no reason.
my arms are still aching. neck too...
its not bad a day afterall.
so i didnt mind much =D
on the eighth of april.
today. did nothing much.
but i flared up real fast in sch. early morning.
forget about it.
and well. i really hate some people.
they are a bunch of irritating bitches.
nvm. dont talk about it.
had piles of work.
my grp presented the oral drama today.
on avg, they say it was natural n good.
but i dont think so.
it sucks. cos we're the first grp.
and.. hahas. nervous. forgot lines. gosh!!
i know im running fever.
i know im falling apart soon cos im sick.
very sick. well.. what can i do? haas.
okays. having terrible headaches too.
well. gotta live with it. live strong. haas.
i just feel like sleeping. forever..
well well. body aching like crazy.
anws. i shld be going somewhere fun tml.
cos i requested my boy to bring me to..
a place fun to relieve stress.
im really very stressed out i guess.
well. hope i will really have fun tml.
well. then i shall end this here.
gonna chiong vcds again. hahas. bye guys.
enjoy ya weekends. god bless ^^
alright!! im back~ feeling unhappy.okays. updates. 1st of april. it's april's fool.mrs poh is one hell of a funny tcher.she's still young at heart i guess.my class got bluff by her!!mygod.. can you believe it? hahas..den got bluff by my boy too.he got his fren to tell me that...he met up with an accidentand is unconscious.i got real anxious. nearly cried.but he, laughed like one big clown!! -.-but well. i had a good laugh that day.. x)2nd of april. its a saturday.had another fight with him.but he made it up and wenta chalet together.spent the night together.very nice. watching vcds, listen to songs.talked. gambled n anything u can think of.had dinner at changi village. ate nasi lemak.went with the guys. ben joined us a little later.den went back to chalet. i had fun. thats all i know x)3rd of april. the freaking sunday.got home at around 1200 noon.watched him play bball before i went home.played game with him.slept. and quarrelled at night.its like total wth!!! grrrrrrrrrr~slept. woke up. slept. woke up.cant go to bed. and.. haiis. i dont know. just know i aint feeling good. =(4th of april. monday blues.wenta school as usual. tts booooring.however today wasnt as bad.i was already feeling upset due to r/s matters.but luckily time pass damn quickly.and the tchers are nice today.not bad a day. with mrs poh treating us!!its the EL enforcer thingy. hahas... yippies!!but thought over lotsa stuff.and was caught day dreaming the whole day??LOLS. i didnt know i was tt good. -.-"however, came back home feeling all alone...well well. there's nothing else i wanna say.i better get going. and do my stuff.take care guys. =)anws. happy 14th bdae to melindaand happy 19th bdae to kok keong =D
the last day of march.the last entry for march.okays. im back. the start sounds a lil sad huhs? hahas. worry not. things are fine.okays. updates. though he n i had broken up.but still wenta meet him for e past 2 days.today will be a rest for him and i.things are quite fine between e both of us.like close friends. so, its fine.okays. stop talking about him.sch mahs.. have been quiet in sch for some time.its time to go back to myself.the noisy old self. hahas..make some noises babe. hahas.. ooookays~stop my crapping. i dont know. maybe just have too many things to think abt bahs.so sorry guys. i'll be fine.okays. but today was fun.mr ng came to take my class. tt cute guy. hahas.he arhs. toot toot de. easily cheated. -.-"but well. at least i know i didnt cheat him.. hahas.netball was cancelled today. dont know why the hell it did..but tts good too. save some torture for myself.after sch. haiis.. my beloved god little bro.stupid duanming, jian an n 2g guys got into a fight.at the multi story carpark.its kinda like a big thang.even the upper sec guys wenta check it out.i wonder what the hell happened.oh lord. save the pathetic guys from all these shit.well. havent been feeling very well.its just like this when youve a weak body.but dont think ive a weak bod.and u guys can come bullying me.i'll slap n kick the hell out of you. bwahahas x)be careful of me. hhahas.. =)okays.. i wonder where i'll end up on sat.ubin or chalet. everything depends.. lalala~oh yeahs. my birthday's coming.gotta plan something soon.i wanna go sing k. with mah babes.hahas. gotta plan plan plan.oh goshhies. i feel so loved.my classmates are like asking, what do you want.hahas. i told them i want a condo. hahas..alrights. its up to them anws.thanks guys. looooove ya =)what do you guys think i shld do?last year had a small cake thrashing party.this year? not gonna be the same bahs...if its gonna be the same..it will not be with the same peeps!! hahas.gotta plan a day out with my mates.and my babes. and my buds.hmm.. 16 with my babes n buds?go sing k with my babes. shannie, lynn, mummie n me!!! btw. my buds taking me out this 2nd. l0ls.linkin, deshun, fa ge, ah ben, him and me!!double bonus!! double ok!! hahas x)den my mates prolly on the15?? a friday.after sch. go for a movie. and.....shopping. and some photo shoots?tt will be held at town!!! bwahahs..who shall i call? lalala.gonna ask them out n confirm tml bahs~ =)ohmygod. if this plans gonna work.i gotta throw in about 50 all together.mygod. my lord. my dear. please save me!!!i currently have 2o bucks. its like...wooohooo. wth man. LOLS -.-"okays okays. this is getting looooong.i better have some self control. hahas.take care guys. huggies x)life's still as usual.the loved n the unloved.the world is fair. i believe in myself.
